I have gone through some difficult things in my life, experiences that have made me feel detached from the world. I have come to identify it as my defence network, I like to think I have built it to protect myself from pain, in-fact I am almost proud of my creation, it makes it really difficult for people to get to know me or get close to me.
For as long as I can remember, I have always been extremely critical of myself, from my body image to my personality I find it extremely difficult to find a good word to say about myself. There are two schools of thought from here, I am the hunchback of Notre Dame with the personality of a gnat bite or I have some psychological issues I need to work through.
In this blog post I outline my experiences of mental health and taking anti psychotics which is medication used to treat certain presentations of mental illness.
When I was fifteen I began to develop psychotic symptoms. This included a number of things such as experiencing auditory hallucinations, delusions and paranoia. I also believed I was possessed by the devil.